I can’t help but think lately about how I can’t seem to motivate myself to act upon the ideas I desperately would like to become real. I am a Web Developer who has the skill to build these ideas, but I lack the business know-how to make it into the marketplace. I feel motivation is preventing me to get where I want to go.
Whenever I look at my average self, I don’t see the “Type A”, “Go Getter” personality needed to produce a life I want. I am lost in infinite thoughts that last for a long time. I’m either comfortable within the boundaries of my already great life or stay consumed about why the grass is always greener on the other side and remain restless. IT IS SO FRUSTRATING, when I know a life can be even better than it already is right now!
Within the recent past, my wife was laid off from her job. Looking back at it, I remember it being both desperation and opportunity. The fear of not having an income stirred up thoughts of an online business opportunity for her. The fear also produced thoughts of doing whatever it takes to get that income back! The end result for her was that she landed a full-time job that worked out great. She is happy with that choice. But for me I began thinking of what that opportunity could mean for myself if I were in her shoes. The thoughts in my mind have been similar to: “I could whip out this budget app in no time if I stayed at home”, and “I could work from anywhere”, and “I could be the best stay-at-home dad ever, while working on a great passive income”. The opportunities are endless.
When I take a self assessment, I see someone who cares greatly about his reputation. Someone who is good and honest. I care greatly about my reputation and how people perceive me. And I am motivated when there is a reflection on that perception. If my kids rely on a promise I’ve made, when a project is handed to me at work, or even something simple like a friend asking to borrow a tool. I must come through, and I must be thought of as someone you can rely upon to do a great job.
In the absence of worrying about my perception, I must admit I am a little lazy. I tend to find myself wanting to “veg” and forcing myself to be simply “be still”. It is during these short periods of times, that I think about the side hustle business ideas. And it is also during these times that motivation is lowest.
And so the days go by, working the full-time job by day, and finding short periods of time just thinking. Thinking about what my life could become. Wondering why I can’t motivate myself to move in that direction with fierce determination. I think in large part it’s because there is no fear. Fear is a great motivator, and for some people, motivation is driven by fear. Don’t get me wrong, I do not wish to lose my job. I just wish to change my personality to become motivated and driven to make a life better than what I already have. To live this one life we all have to the fullest. Acting on the knowledge that I and I alone have the power to do it.
I think it’s also important to reflect a little and to consider that there is another factor involved in creating the life you want. That there is a higher calling that you need to consider. I am reminded that when I was a child, my Sunday school Bible class asked us to pick out our favorite verse from the Bible. The teacher created a little plaque with that verse on it.
That verse for me was Matthew 17:20: He said to them, “Because of your little faith. For truly, I say to you, if you have faith like a grain of mustard seed, you will say to this mountain, ‘Move from here to there,’ and it will move, and nothing will be impossible for you.”
Have Faith in God…